Sunday, May 19, 2019

879.

Happy Sunday folks! ๐Ÿ˜€

Hopefully everyone is enjoying this beautiful day in peace and harmony. It's warm and sunny here and I'm resting for now.

Up until this moment, this weekend hasn't been what I thought it would be.

 My expectations: restful quiet with snacks, music, crochet, needles and thread...

Instead I got lots of conversation(s) with my friend, a lost-dog crisis, a bug-in-the-house crisis, and a dearth of rest/sleep.

- Sleep deprivation is not news around here. ๐Ÿ˜’๐Ÿ˜ฃ

- The bug incident had my heart racing. I've lived at my current residence for seven years. I can count on one had the number of big bugs I've seen in here.

I turned on the bathroom light and there it was, on the floor. I began screaming. Baby Bliss et al ran out to see why. I said, "Cockroach". Her boyfriend said, "Water bug".

Either way, my adrenaline shot up as I ran in search of something to spray it with.

Febreeze was the first thing I saw.

I blasted that sucka but it didn't stop him. Baby Bliss came with a shoe and a screaming-shouting frenzy ensued.

The sound of a bug "splat" is horrendous. Worse is seeing it happen. ๐Ÿ˜ฐ๐Ÿ˜ฑ๐Ÿคข๐Ÿคฎ But she smashed it. I dare not describe the mutilation I witnessed. Thankfully the boyfriend cleaned up the debris.

After all that drama and mayhem, my nerves were shot. It sent me on a tear. (See definitions 1 and 2.)

Bugs like paper and I have lots of it in here: waiting-to-be-filed: manuscripts past and present, receipts, etc. as well as waiting-to-be-shredded.

Some of that paper will see the inside of our dumpster as soon as I go out today.

Perhaps it was a reminder from the Great One that I need to get my ass in high gear regarding my ongoing quest to free our living space of Things Which No Longer Serve Us.

As discussed in one of the many conversations I had with my friend yesterday, I keep stuff. He said I'm a hoarder. I consider myself a sentimental preserver because I keep things of remembrance: greeting cards (I have the one my mom gave me for my 16th birthday as well as the cards I got at Baby Bliss' baby shower 20-something years ago); some of Mr. Bliss' clothes/shoes/important papers; Baby Bliss' childhood artwork and report cards; old diaries and journals; income tax filings dating back to the 80s including those spanning several marriages...

Some documents I've retained because of a few scary incidents in my past that necessitated me having to prove I did or didn't engage in some thing that could have had serious consequences (fines, penalties, and/or jail time) had I not been able to prove my involvement or lack thereof in said activity.

Seriously.

However, I do acknowledge that some of those documents could probably be disposed of without negative repercussions.

I also know that to move forward, one must be willing to leave the past behind. Or, as my friend and I discussed recently (and on a few other occasions), "What are you willing to give up to get what you want?"

Part of me feels like I've given up so much already, unwillingly (Mr. Bliss, my dad). I know trying to hold on to that which cannot be held is ultimately foolish and possibly dangerous. I also know that memories are ours to hold in our hearts forever, until we are only memories.

Life...

It's a combination of so many things. Two of my favorite songs sum up those feelings for me.


One is Vivir Mi Vida.



The other is Rie y Llora.



- Once again, my neighbor's dog got loose and ran away from her. The first time was back in early fall, when the dog and my neighbor were new companions. She took the dog out for a walk and thought it would go potty faster off the leash. ๐Ÿ˜‘

The dog decided to explore the land.

Alone.

My neighbor was devastated. The dog was returned to her by animal control several days later.

This time the dog ran off when it was frightened by a different neighbor.

Allegedly.

My neighbor called me several times to tell me but I was otherwise engaged and couldn't answer. So she climbed my stairs and knocked at my door.

I had to talk to her as I peeked around the side of the door because I wasn't dressed. ๐Ÿ˜ถ  She told me the dog had gotten away again. I told her I'd get dressed and come down.

Long story short, we looked for the dog for a while and made a few stops to inquire and inform. No dog and two hours spent.

When I awoke this morning, there was a text from my neighbor saying the dog had returned.

Hallelujah.

- My friend and I have been enjoying excellent communication for a couple of weeks now. We talked numerous times yesterday, starting at 2 a.m. and ending close to midnight. We've talked twice today.

It feels like we're ramping up the excitement leading up to our anticipated visit and I'm really digging our interaction. According to him, he is too. ๐Ÿ˜Š

I was anxious about going home but now I'm eager to get on the road.

Oh happy day! ๐Ÿ’ƒ

Time to change the scenery y'all. Gotta henna this head.

Ciao darlings. ๐Ÿ’‹

Saturday, May 18, 2019

878.

Happy Saturday y'all.

I hope everyone is feeling well and somewhere safe.

I'm doing well.

Nodding and tired but here I am. ๐Ÿ˜ฉ๐Ÿ˜„

It's been a long week and now the weekend is here. Hurray!

No special plans for me because last weekend was so busy: a birthday dinner for Baby Bliss, a graduation dinner for another family member, Mother's Day dinner too.

My weekend will be spent getting ready for my upcoming trip.

So much to-do on my list! Packing for sure but also (a)mending (a few dresses), crocheting (a gift for my host and possibly a belt for my dress), measuring and pouring (toiletries so I don't have to take whole 20 and 30 ounce bottles with me).

My friend and I had a two-hour conversation earlier. We rang off about 45 minutes ago. He works overnights so we talked as he worked. He's on the very short list of folk I'll be seeing when I'm home and I'm excited. ๐Ÿ’—

It's been six years since we've seen each other in person.

I'm having a bit of a row with my packing list. We can't seem to agree on what attire I'm actually taking with me. Some favorites for sure but there are also new things that should go too.

As well, the dress I originally planned to wear to the quinceaรฑera has a rival. My first choice is a close-fitting evening gown in a deep, rich chocolate. It features a plunging v-neck and tank top style straps, a fitted bodice, and a crocheted spider web overlay that starts right under the breastbone and extends down a few inches.

I've had the dress for several years and worn it three times. (A retirement party, a wedding, and Baby Bliss' birthday dinner several years ago. Two of those events were in 2014.)

My jewelry (a cocktail ring and 2-inch half hoop earrings) is rose gold with faux gemstones.

The "alternate" dress is black. Long and sleek in a fabric I absolutely love. It's sleeveless. I can wear the same jewelry I planned to wear with the brown dress so that's a plus. If I have time, I'll crochet a beaded belt for the dress before I get outta here.

That's all for now folks. I've been awake since 7:30 yesterday morning. Sleep beckons. ๐Ÿ˜ด

More later...

Smooches y'all. ๐Ÿ’‹๐Ÿ’‹๐Ÿ’‹

Saturday, May 11, 2019

877.

Hello and how-do folks?

I hope everyone is safe and happy.

We're doing just swell in these parts. Baby Bliss and I are looking at a torrential rain through our living room window and wondering how we're going to get safely to our 6:30 soiree.

The plans for my trip home are prancing along at a proper pace. ๐ŸŽ

I have my dress, jewelry, and shoes for the quinceaรฑera. My dress is sleeveless so I'll need a jacket or sweater, maybe a long sheer scarf to use as a wrap.

My accommodations were secured a few days ago. Thank God because that's been a source of anxiety for the past couple of months (more on that later as well). But now that my bed and board are assured, I've been anxious for another reason.

Maybe "anxious" isn't the proper word. More like nervous excitement... (Is that the same as anxious?)

It's all for the greater good (Let us pray๐Ÿ™๐Ÿฝ!) so there will be lots of meditating and inhaling of lavender essential oil in the meantime.

Due to the availability dates of my lodging, I'll be heading out two days later than originally scheduled. But I'm not fretting. It still gets me home a day before the party.

It's also possible that those two days will be added at the end of my trip (so says me), which I'm currently open to and perhaps looking forward to. ๐Ÿคซ

My schedule is flexible... ๐Ÿ˜‰

Well looka there! The rain has stopped. ๐Ÿ˜ƒ

However, we are now under a tornado warning. ๐Ÿ˜จ

I guess it's a good time to start my packing list. ๐Ÿ–‹๐Ÿ—’

Thursday, May 9, 2019

876.

Good morning my dears. 

I hope this post finds everyone happy and healthy.

I'm... here. Thankful and I do believe fairly healthy.

So much has happened since my last post... But that's what passes for "normal" in my life, lots happening.

Would I have it any other way? I'm not sure.

Let's get the sad news out of the way first:

- The death toll has risen. My godmother's husband died. I think it's been a month. ๐Ÿ’”

- There was a shooting at a university where a family member works. Sadly, two young men were murdered. Four others were shot and are hospitalized. Thankfully my family member wasn't on campus when it happened so was not harmed. 

My prayers for peace and healing for everyone affected by this horrific act.

๐ŸŒธ ๐ŸŒธ ๐ŸŒธ

Happy news:

- Baby Bliss will be celebrating her birthday soon and The Royal Court is gathering. One attendant has already arrived. The two of them are currently sleeping in Baby Bliss' room. The birthday dinner won't have as many celebrants as last year but the festivities will span several days.

- Miss L, a senior neighbor, invited me to a Mother's Day cookout via messenger (her brother). She and her brother are roommates and she and I met when I visited her brother to tell him that daddy had died. Miss L and I saw each other again at another neighbor's birthday cookout. 

I was told that she thought I was a very nice person and she wanted me to come enjoy the day with her family. A couple of other neighbors said Miss L's family cookouts are legendary so yes, I will be going and I'm thankful for the invite. (And the sweet compliment.)

- I'll be heading home for a long weekend soon, for a cousin's quinceaรฑera. I'm excited for a number of reasons, one or two of which I've alluded to in previous posts. It will definitely be an interesting trip. Stay tuned for details.

๐ŸŒธ ๐ŸŒธ ๐ŸŒธ

In other news, the suitors have been ramping it up in the past few weeks. No one new because I'm not actively using my online dating profile. These are familiar suitors: the Athlete, the Astronaut, Mr. Skittish, and The Other Guy (who lives in the neighborhood and grew up with a neighbor I'm fairly close with).

- I actually had dinner with The Other Guy a week or so ago. He's... different. Dinner was... interesting. Our before and after interaction is/was... strange, even by my standards.

But it's all good. He's who he is and I'm who I am. I like him as a friend.

Maybe we'll hang out again. Maybe not. He did ask me out again, after that dinner. He'd also asked me out before. I accepted but changed my mind later. He never asked me why and I didn't bring it up. Then there was the dinner.

I think he lives in a different emotional/mental/psychological space than I do. Which is cool in a friend but a definite no-no for someone I might date.

We see each other in passing in the neighborhood. We speak. He texts me sometimes; I text back...

- The Athlete and I hadn't spoken in over a month. We had gotten to a stage in our relationship where we weren't dating but we would see each other and talk/text occasionally. In March he did something that let me know it was time to cut things off with him.

He didn't agree with my assessment of the situation, which was fine. I still get final say on who I cavort with. 

He texted me last week, joking about some things we'd done in the past. I was polite but unamused. When he asked to see me, I told him no.

It's possible that at some future date I might change my mind but let's not hold our collective breath folks.

- The Astronaut and I have been texting sporadically, pleasantries and an occasional photo.

- Mr. Skittish has called and texted a few times in the past week, checking on me and flirting. He said he might come to town one weekend soon. I told him to let me know when, so we can hang out if I'm in town.

Honestly, right now I'm in a holding pattern where real dating is concerned. There is something (someone) I want (I think...) and sometimes we have to give up something to get something. So I'm giving up real dating in the present to possibly get what I want in the future.

Time will reveal all to everyone, me included. ๐Ÿ˜†๐Ÿ˜˜

And now, I must bid y'all a fond adieu. I've been awake almost 24 hours and it's not good. The dinner party is scheduled for pedicures this afternoon. If I lay down now, it's possible I'll get three hours of sleep.

Toodles! 

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 Happy Friday everyone. I hope you are all healthy and safe. As I said in my previous post, there have been a number of changes chez Bliss. ...