230: dreaming my life away

hey y'all.

i was supposed to blog about this morning's dream. i had it all written out in my head, composing as i brushed my teeth and rushed baby bliss to get dressed so we could head out to the library.

now we're here and the dream blog post has poofed its way outta my head. lemme think on it for a while...

in the meantime, i'll write about something else.

we're in the library right now. (what else is new, right?) i'm sitting in the kid's section, my favorite location for undisturbed working. i know it sounds weird but despite crying babies and shushing mommies, it's easier to work here than in the adult's section. maybe it's because i know i can make as much noise as i need to without having to worry about being too loud. (right now i'm making lots of phone calls for the project i'm working on.)

what is disturbing though is the book on tape that's been playing for the past hour or so. i'm not sure why it's even being allowed. it's clearly an adult book cuz i've heard more than a few curse words and several gruesome descriptions of people being assaulted and killed.

ahhhh. it sounds like it's over. ooh, no. the guy put on headphones. maybe he got the message when i put on mine.

he appears to be the caretaker for a young man who is here with him. the young man is laying on a half-bed/stretcher on wheels that has all kinds of wires attached to it. he can talk but has a speech impediment of some kind.

initially i thought the book was being played for him. now i know differently. so now the caretaker -- who has been trying to catch my eye for the past 30 minutes -- is entertaining himself while the young man sits/lays there talking to himself and passersby.

oh my. the caretaker has gone off and left the young man here alone. hmmm... i wonder what the sitch is with this dude... okay, lemme mind my business until i see something that really requires my attention. like dude isn't back in 10 minutes.

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the dream... parts of it have come back to me.

baby bliss and i were in the apartment i grew up in.

mr. bliss was there too. but he wasn't the mr. bliss we know and (usually) love. he was an "ike turner".

a mr. no-bliss, if you will.

i remember that he was enraged. ranting and raving outside our apartment door like a mad man. baby bliss was terrified, crying and wanting to hide but afraid for me. there were two dog leashes attached to the wall by the front door. they were bright orange. in dream-inference, i understood that mr. bliss had previously used them to punish me.

baby bliss was afraid he would do it again if she ran to hide. she thought she could stop him by staying.

i guess we were communicating by telepathy cuz i don't remember hearing anything in the dream. everything seemed to be pantomime but not overly exaggerated in that way.

i told baby bliss that i would no longer submit to the leashes. then i snatched one from the wall and we ran to hide it in the hall closet. i remember feeling frantic, searching for a place where i knew he wouldn't find it, no matter how hard he looked.

then i woke up.

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a long time ago, someone told me that dreaming in color means you're crazy.

i don't know if that's true but i do know that i can recall two dreams where the color was noticeable enough to be memorable. only two...

this dream was one of them. the leash was very orange. bright. like almost red.

my thoughts upon waking were chakra-based. we learned about chakras when i studied Reiki. western thought is just beginning to recognize the concept of chakras but many eastern cultures have embraced the idea for thousands of years.

"chakra" is a sanskrit word that translates as "wheel". chakras are centers of energy that line up in the body from crown (top of head) to root (between the genitals and the anus).

there are 7 chakras and each one is associated with a specific color, among other things.

when i re-played the dream in my head, the color orange stood out. i'm not saying there was no other color in the dream. just that it's the only color i remember.

so now i'm looking up the chakras and colors in another browser window while i'm writing this...

here's what i got:



Orange:

Sacrum: svādhiṣṭhāna, स्वाधिष्ठान

Creativity, sexual energy (for women), desire, pleasure, stability, self-confidence, well-being,
taste.

Water. The lower belly.

Sexual healing, try new ways of expressing yourself creatively, dance, move your hips, practice yoga.

Sweet fruits, raw honey, nuts, spices.

since the orange was so bright, almost red, i'm checking red too. here it is:




Red or coral red:

 Root: mūlādhāra, मूलाधार

Survival, grounding, sexuality (for men), stability, smell.

Earth. The base of the spine.

Spend some time each day sitting directly on the earth. Dance!

Root vegetables, protein-rich foods, spices.


do y'all see a theme here?

my official interpretation (as an amateur dream interpreter): mr. bliss and i need to go out dancing, come home and eat all the special foods, then have crazy mad sex until we pass out.

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