Good morning everyone and Happy Monday.
I hope everyone is doing well.
I'm doing as well as I can, under the circumstances.
So much going on...
This is a very emotional time for me and I'm crying as I write this post.
Uppermost in my mind is my dad.
We just rang off. I also talked to him yesterday.
He sounded better physically today than yesterday. His voice was stronger, his responses were faster, and he seemed to be in better spirits overall.
But mentally he's still in a warp of some sort. He has a medical procedure scheduled for the end of August and it's worrying him terribly. Each time I've talked to him in the past several weeks, he's brought up the procedure and has told me it was scheduled for "next week".
One time I talked to him and he was crying. It was heart-breaking to hear my dad cry and I cried too. He told me to look after his wife if anything happened to him.
His wife later told me that he thought he would die during the procedure.
I am so thankful to have had my dad for 50 years. But I am aware that he grows older and more frail by the day. I'm sure his recent heart attack and subsequent stroke did nothing to improve his condition.
In addition, my (maternal) grandmother -- who helped raise me -- has also faced recent health challenges that slowed her down tremendously.
Two of the people who influenced my childhood, and therefore helped shape me -- are fading away slowly.
I know we can't live forever but I doubt we are ever ready to lose the people we love.
Hopefully no one is dying tomorrow but I know they're going and I know there's nothing I can do to prepare myself.
This too is part of life...
Once again I'm asking you all, my virtual friends and family, to uplift me in prayer and positive thoughts and send positive and healing energy my way.
I need it.
Thank you all in advance.